As I hit the share button… I cringed! I was getting real, I was putting myself out there, it was public [for Marie Forleo], way beyond my comfort zone, and it wasn’t perfect!
Was I ACTUALLY going to put this out there… in the world?
A few months back, I stumbled across Marie Forleo. She has her own YouTube channel – where she talks about creating a business and life you love… and considering the fact that THAT has been my purpose in this last year – I was hooked.
Not only does she interview some really interesting people [Ps… I really recommend that you check out her interview with Marianne Williamson] but she also has really great insights, and is self described as:
“Part business strategist, part marketing maven and part spiritual ass-kicker with a side of hip-hop swagg”
She has interviewed some really interesting people, and shared awesome insights… and she has given me tons to think about [and do] to grow myself as a person, and my business.
Marie has created b-school… a place where she equips entrepreneurs to take their business to the next level… and I secretly dreamed of learning about the nitty gritty of business from her… Bschool would have been the perfect way to do this – and I just knew that it was out of my financial reach right now [with the Rand being so different to the dollar]
and then I noticed an opportunity to apply for a scholarship.
Immediately I had all these great ideas about what I wanted to do… how I could show some of the stuff I’m creating… it was going to be BEAUTIFUL!
But… then I saw the due date… There was practically no time to create this artwork [plus I had some client deadlines that I needed to focus on]…
So what do I do?
Do I scrap it… try again next year [who knows… maybe I’ll just try the online thing in the meantime, and if I’m able to raise enough… maybe I can invest in it next year]
But then I just realised that I couldn’t do that…
I couldn’t miss up on this opportunity.
Time to show up… get over my fears… and do it!
I’m Visual storyteller – I help people [and companies] tell their stories through images and video – but ridiculously enough – I don’t have a story for me!
Yes… I’m the clichéd shoe maker with no shoes for her kids!
I’m thrown by which angle I should tell… and if I do it… what should it look like?
After all, people will be deciding whether they want to work with me – based on this video…
Oh, the overwhelm!
So I do nothing.
I continue creating other work for people, and hope that clients love that so much, that they want to work with me anyway.
Back to the story…
I decide that with the 30 minutes I have before fetching my boy… I will quickly [first mistake] record a video.
Let’s just say that it was 30 minutes of wasted stress… and no video to show for it.
It’s also now after 5pm – and I have to fetch my boy – aka: enter the night routine kicks in and I have missed my opportunity to submit [as cut-off was 8pm SA time]…
Whilst driving… I couldn’t shake the need to apply.
I couldn’t let this go… I really want this!
Then I thought…
Have phone, will record!
I am now venturing into the realm of “half-arsed”… but I figure…
“done is better than none”
I made the video on my iPhone… and figured I would go with “real” Emma – and hope for the best.
I rushed back home, tried to load it – but it didn’t like the format – so I pulled it into iMovie [yes… again… half-arsed and quick will work just fine right now] Whilst there, I figure I’ll pull in a few snippets of my work [in a very sad attempt to redeem myself]…
…and I share it!
But as I started loading it… It hits me…
WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!?!?!?!?!
I’m cringing as to how this will surely stuff up my online reputation… [The professional storyteller – who creates videos… and she’s using an iPhone????]
I contemplated deleting it.
But something inside said:
“Step up… take the step out of your comfort zone… welcome to the edge!”
So here is me… welcome to the edge of my comfort zone:
Yes. I have definitely moved past my comfort zone.
…as it loads, I am sending a prayer with it… that people will see the authenticity behind it… and that judgement will be held back… rather… I will be applauded for trying.
And after a night’s rest… and some time to reflect on it, I have come away thinking:
I’m really glad that I did it. I had an opportunity to I showed up… and I was real.
and… more importantly…
It got me over my fear of putting myself out there [and making video’s via iPhone].
Every video I make – doesn’t have to be a first class production… it’s ok to be real. I think I’ll do some more videos in the future [but you’ll have to sign up to my newsletter to see those – for now]
The process also encouraged me to FINALLY create my “about me” video.
But I’m still coming unstuck as to which “story” to share…
so I need your help…
What do you want to know about me?
[Drop your thoughts in the comment box below]